Last Time

 Someone asked me if I knew you today. A million memories flashed through my mind but all I could say was, “Not anymore.” I remember the unforgettable memories and the laughter that never stopped, the smiles that never dropped, and our hearts that never unlocked. Best friends forever, you held my heart as it was falling apart. You placed it back together, you made things better. The sway of your dark, brown hair and the way your chocolate eyes twinkled as you smiled, I fell for you like a puppy dog begging for his treat. All I thought of was what used to be, but then I awoke out of my fantasy to realize that I must stop looking back into the past because nothing has changed. That's why the future was created; the old for the new and everything rearranged. But that was then and this is now.

I was weak. I fell back into your strong, embracing arms that never actually caught me. A soft kiss by your smooth, intense lips was planted on my scarred forehead to reassure me that everything would be okay. "I love you." You had one extremely ironic talent and that was lying because I believed every word to ever fall out of your wild mouth. How was I supposed to know? You were my first love, I was young, and I’d grown to trust you, but you taught me that promises can’t be kept; they were made to be broken. All the heart-wrenching fights, the sleepless nights, things for us were never right. As the tears kept falling from my tired eyes, I learned you were nothing but a waste of my time; time that I can never bring back. Your size 10 foot stomped on my heart as if it were a doormat. That led me to my decision that I needed to get away to feel again. “I’m sorry,” but that was an understatement of what I needed to hear. My tiny ears were ringing from the lines of lies you portrayed. Now I do not want to hear anything from you because reality hit me in the face and I’ve grasped the fact that everything you said was a lie. I got tired of running in circles from the hurtful games you played. You’re the player and now I’m the coach. I live my own life to lead my own paths. The greatest pleasure in life is to walk away from a situation that you never thought you could walk away from. Well, this is me, sucking up my pride. My final wave, this is good-bye.